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i look at the park across the street and see me crossing the dirt road, bare feet, to get there. i see myself climbing the trees and talking with other kids. i see me going from being pushed in the toddler swing by babysitters to pumping my own legs in the other “big kid” swings. i see me walking past it on my way back from elementary school. i see my bus passing it after middle school. and now i’m jogging by it. just graduated high school. and i see me. all those different years. i’m there.
in the beginning, i was timid and shy. i was the little girl that people awed and doted over around the neighborhood. they watched over me. they remembered my birthday and knew my favorite things. i went around in a jogging stroller, my mom jogging behind me. during a walking marathon, i rode on top of my dads shoulders and made the newspaper. then i was riding my tricycle, trailing behind her. then i would bike next to her, talking the whole way, about everything. and now i jog her same route just at my own speed. and everyone watched me grow. i was their little girl.
when i was little and my uncles and aunts and cousins came to visit i was always in someones’ arms. my feet never touched the ground. i was their “twinkle-toes” i was the youngest. i was their little girl.
to my parents and brother and family friends.. i’m their little girl.
and now i’m growing older. i’m done with high school. that building just beyond the trees at the park across the street. i’m leaving for college and moving on. my mom told me she’s excited to see how much i change. but i don’t wanna change… i feel like i’ve worked so hard to get where i am and be who i am that i don’t want to start over. change is scary.
i’m going to miss everyone. they’ve just always been there and it’ll be weird not having them around. all the unknowns are the scariest parts. i guess i just have to remember that i’m always going to be their little girl…
